Well what am I? I guess I am a young white female, living with her family. Trying to go to college so that someday I will have a degree. Taking care of everyone that needs me. But the stress of it all is just so much. There's always an emergancy room vist, doctor's appointment, or just something that is needed of me. Do not get me wrong I am fine with it, I like being the dependable person, I like being the one people come to. I dont know why I then seem to get cranky or worked up over any little thing, Its like I want the responsiblitie, I just dont want the stress that comes with it, but you cant have it that way. Where there is responsiblitie there is stress. I just need to learn to contorle myself better. Its just the damage I am doing in the mean time while I try to learn how to be more patiant and practice better communication. I just know that in the transition things will be lost. Also I would love some help, but I guess if you fight for something(even if you dont relize you are fighting of it.) the person that you took it away from will show no help. I didnt relize this, I didnt know that it all had to fall on one person. But I guess I have relized it now and can take controle of the issue and deal with it. I just dont know how long it will take to learn not to show how compltly hopeless and lost I feel, how I need to check in my emotions so that they wont show. Perhaps I should just become numb it seems to have worked for someone else I know. Perhaps if I can just do that, shut off everything and simple focus on others and my school work I can make it through this all and survive with no real scars to myself. I guess I really just need more time to think.